On "Are You Sexually Active?" on the Psychiatrist Questionnaire

doctor, let me tell you how i do not know the difference between this body and a pile of wishbones discarded after dinner, waiting for someone to find use and snap.

doctor, let me tell you about snap and pull and trigger. how i flinch at the way sunflowers face the sun: the way they always know where to turn, the way they have a place to turn to.

doctor, let me tell you what hate looks like in stockings and seething and when i learned what an apology tastes like. how i cannot wear the color white.

doctor, let me tell you how soft his hands are.

doctor, let me tell you it does not matter how soft his hands are.

doctor, let me tell you how womanhood is earned in blood.

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